I am HAPPY. I am NERVOUS. put it all together, I AM HAVOUS!

I really don't know how to clarify these emotions inside of me.

I am happy. However...yes, I AM NERVOUS. 

This is so scary..more than I had expected it to be.

YES I WANT IT..I NEED IT..I LOVE IT..

IT IS WHAT I'VE BEEN DREAMING OF...

but.....

hmm...

God, I know you want me HERE.

If it's not because of You, 

I will be crying alone in my bed now.

but I am not..

because You gave me what I want.
You make me smile. n_n

God, for the second time...no..

for million times..You've blessed me..

and now, I am requesting You..again..

please..don't leave me alone.

Biarlah segala sesuatu yang terjadi adalah menurut kehendakMu.

Blessed me until the END of this.

I really want IT.

It's just that I lost my confidence.

That's all..

I believe in You.

I know, Engkau telah merencanakan yang terbaik buat saya.

Amen.

p/s:

Lord, take my hand..and hold me in..

make me holy..make me all that You want me to be..